Focusing on people not things

I know I write a lot about what matters most in this blog. I think our situation, really pushes us to focus on the basics, because so much of what is not basic was lost. That dream of a Dr's career, the big house, the nice cars, the exoctic vacations, and so on... I don't really think it is a bad thing that we didn't get or for now don't have these things. I actually believe that someday when we do have more "financial opportunity" it will be more difficult for me to focus on what matters most. Things can "cloud" up what matters most. I don't mean that they always do I just think they can.

I am so grateful for my husband and baby boys and the baby I carry. I feel so lucky to have them. I don't know what I would do without them. It's a lot of work to keep up with - the young mother thing, working at night, helping my husband regain a career in the medical field, and so on-- but everytime I think about the work-- I know I am doing the work for the things that matter most. It matters most that I can be home with my litttle ones and help provide. It matters most that my husband is busy everyday "rebuilding" a career. It matters most that we are all healthy and together. What matters most is that the Savior in his ultimate sacrifce in giving his life so that my husband can "heal" from his physical aliments, and we have the promise of an eternity as a family in this life and the next. I am grateful for my family and for my faith. These are the things that matter most. 

Let it Go

I just watched Frozen with my husband and little boy Ben. In the movie there is a song that I just love... where the ice princess finally accepts who she is and walks away from everyone who has told her to be different, and hold back. I think I'll give 2013 the "Let it Go" theme. Walk away from everyone's expectations- on what my hubby should be doing with his life, what kind of parent I should be, how I should disipline, how many kids I should have, and the list goes on.

Reaching inward is so much more empowering than reaching outward. Trying to get acceptance from all the wrong places just makes things wrong. The less I listen to the "naysayers" the happier I am with me. When I "Let it Go" I become responsible for my own future- and I'm not passing the buck  or blaming someone else who has different ideas or plans for us.

I guess if I were to turn the phrase "Let it go" into something else- it would be "Forgive" don't let anyone be responsible for your happiness. Let it go. Let go what is hard- and be yourself. Only then can you become who you truly want to be. This theme may need to spill into 2014 as I'm still pinching myself when I have unkind thoughts about whatever issues I might be feeling inadequte about. We can be whoever we want to be. But the only way to be that person is to Let go of the people we are not - angry, hurt, fearful.